Conference was good.  Especially Faust’s talk on forgiveness, I really liked that one and needed to hear it.  I’ve always had an easier time forgiving people who have hurt me.  But if someone hurts my husband or son, I don’t let it go easily.  Especially if they’re repeat offenders.  So my goal now is to let it go.  Like my mom says, I just don’t have time for those kinds of feelings.  I have more important things going on in my life.

My dad looked much better this week.  Mom’s been worried because he’s on oxygen now, but he really looks and sounds better.  I know she has it harder than anyone.  I’m sure I’d be the same way if I was in her position.  It’s hard to know if you really are helping when you can’t look inside someone.  But I really do have faith that he can continue to beat the odds.  Now if he’d just stop losing weight, I think we’d have little to worry about.

Despite the good weekend, which should have me in good spirits, I’m still in pain.  Pain gives me the meh’s.  I’ve been spoiled the last 3 months so I’m trying to just be grateful for that, but I’m really just pissed I didn’t cure myself.  But I was thumbing through my herb book last night and found a new one to try.  Everything I’m on is good for “female complaints, uterus strength, and female hormone imbalance”, nothing on endometriosis.  But last night I read that angelica is good for that.  So here we go, one more trip to Dr. Christopher’s.  Our health insurance changed so now surgery really isn’t an option.

I need to get out of this funk though.  I don’t feel like doing anything enjoyable, just cleaning my house. meh.

Meh.  Meh.  Meh.